Most of our stories make a virtue of equanimity and declare that anger or fear are failures. Many believe that our suffering is caused by straying from virtue, that if we remained fiercely loyal to our ideals our suffering would be vanquished. At root, many spiritual people believe self improvement eliminates suffering.
It is not so. Equanimity is not something we create or destroy. There is a passage whereby consciousness connects with time, a tunnel whereby the creature and the divine are united. The witness, our perceiving consciousness, need not strive after equanimity. It is calm and composed regardless of circumstance. It is, without fail, at peace and fully immersed in the ocean of love. That is the nature of consciousness – the wave of individuality is not made of a different substance than the waters from which it arises. Suffering is not eliminated by self improvement; suffering and self improvement are different ways of understanding the same thing.
Equanimity, determination, and anger all arise and subside for the creature at the end of the tunnel. They are waves that come and go, leaving residues in our manifestations if we cling to them. At times, the creature’s mind is thinned and the divine light spills out into the world. At other times, the creature’s mind congeals and the light is blocked. Whether you find yourself overflowing with joy or to be miserable and suffering – if you are removed enough to be aware of the tunnel, you still yet dwell in Love.
Spirit is not calling you to create equanimity, establish determination, or discard anger. No, Spirit is only calling you to understand all that occurs from the perspective of a wave of that ocean of peace and joy from which your consciousness arises.
By all means, let us choose equanimity when we can. The more often the creature at the end of the tunnel thins itself, the less it will suffer as all things transform and the appearances it craves vanish. But it is an act of compassion to encourage the creature to choose equanimity, not a self-salvation – you are already equanimity incarnate, not the creature.
Without fierceness, then, let the creatures set their resolves and adopt determination when it accords with their chosen ideals. If we suppose that breaking a bad habit or building up an independent financial resolve will bring us happiness that we have somehow misplaced, we can choose to indulge the creature. So long as no creature (another or the one through which we perceive time) is harmed, then it is a good story – a fiction still, but let us choose not to thrust creatures into landscapes of hell even in fictions.
And, should the creature become angry or fearful, let us keep our distance but gently refuse to let such anger or fear become a bedrock in the creature. These waves, just as the waves of joy or community, can serve the creature in its narrative. Let the anger make the creatures independent of domination by corrupt politicians and discard co-dependent relationships, for example. Seen through the tunnel, such anger serves to crumble the bedrock of hierarchy that we are indoctrinated with. Such anger serves to reduce the sufferings of the creatures.
Without identification or fierceness, let us steward our bodies and minds. Let us sit not at the inner altars of the creatures and worship there with them, but instead maintain the perspective of the infinite in time. The spiritual endeavor can be seen, from the end of the tunnel, as the effort to pierce the veil by thinning the creature. But, from the start of the tunnel where our consciousness arises, it is our very own perception that is the piercing of the veil. To make our very natures into virtues is to attempt to persuade the creatures at which we look to look back at us. To make the waves of emotions and perceptions into problems and successes is to interpret the dance of the Beloved in time as a struggle and saga.
You cannot succeed or fail. You cannot win or lose. You cannot live or die. But, as a steward of yourself and the planet, you are choosing a story to read to the Children of God. You are creating a world for them, you are creating the starting point for the stories they will tell. Will you choose one of equanimity, determination, or anger? Are the adversities fuel for your fire, purifications, or the victors in a tragic tale? Will there be beauty, compassion, and love? Exploration? Art? Is it about wealth and conquest, domination? Or is it about magic and miracles? Some of these Children are new, youths – children both in flesh and spirit. What will you tell them? What will you tell our Father?
We, all the Children of God, have gathered around the campfire to hear your story.