When you don’t know what to do, you have wandered away from yourself.
When troubling circumstances arise in your life, go somewhere by yourself and bathe in consciousness through meditation and prayer. And, if you don’t feel guided by the time you emerge, do nothing just yet. Seek again after your holy companion and yourself in meditation and prayer until the time is right and you know what must be done. When you don’t know what to do, you have forgotten to be.
When someone speaks negatively to you or acts against you, retreat into yourself in the same way. It doesn’t need to be a matter of an hour – you can seek the ground once again wherever you are. Just breathe and be aware of your breath. Breathing in, accept the gift of creation – and breathing out, you will have the gratitude and awareness for right action. When you don’t know what to do, you have been caught by animal reactivity and habit.
Even when it’s as basic as not knowing what to do to be a happy, full, whole being – you have lost yourself and must seek to return to your essence through meditation and prayer. Or, prayer and meditation. It doesn’t matter whether you are driven to speak to your holy companion or listen to Him, and often one leads to the other spontaneously. Even in the way of stillness and silence, you are guided and must discard the idea of a “right way.”
When you don’t know what to do, you are probably confusing your ego desires with the holy guidance you have received. In stillness and silence, allow yourself to be persuaded and take the Holy One’s hand in yours… in so doing, you will remember yourself as free, whole, and holy.
I said, “Let me walk in the field.”
God said, “No, walk in the town.”
I said, “There are no flowers there.”
He said, “No flowers, but a crown.”
I said, “But the sky is black,
There is nothing but noise and din.
He wept as He sent me back,
“There is more,” He said, “there is sin.”
I said, “But the air is thick
And fogs are veiling the sun.”
He answered, “But souls are sick,
Souls in the darkness undone.”
I said, “I will miss the light,
And my friends will miss me, they say.”
He answered, “Choose tonight,
If I am to miss you, or they.”
I pleaded for time to be given.
He said, “Is it hard to decide?
It will not seem hard in heaven
To have followed the steps of your Guide.”
I cast one look at the field,
Then set my face to the town.
He said, “My child, do you yield?
Will you leave the flowers for a crown?”
Then into His hand went mine,
And into my heart came He.
Now I walk with a light Divine,
The path I had feared to see.
Blessings, dear hearts.